Most depressing dream of my life.

[Lyndis]

Okay, I'm hoping that someone can analyze this dream as well as they did my other two, as this one really bothered me when I awoke from it. This is a dream that I had just a couple of nights ago.

In my dream, I'm with my boyfriend, Bill, and he's telling me that he needs my protection. There is something after him. He's very tired, and he's asked me to stay on watch for him. The next scene sort of pans out like something from a first-person shooter videogame. I have an ice pick as a weapon, and I'm going around, stabbing animals and people, anything that gets even remotely close to Bill. It's very dark now, and I can barely see anything. I look just up ahead of me, and I see a person lying on the ground. I freak out, jumping on top of the guy and continually stabbing him in the face with the ice pick. He's yelling, "Stop! Wait, Jade, stop it!"

Suddenly, I realize that it's Bill that I'm stabbing! I don't know what had caused me to attack so recklessly, but now I've nearly killed my boyfriend. In a panic, we "rush" to the hospital (for some reason, modern transportation wasn't available, so we were riding in a horse and carriage). When he leaves the hospital (which happened to be a cave in the middle of nowhere), his face is very scarred up. At first, he tells me that he understands, that it was dark, and that I didn't know what I was doing. I'm still really depressed about it, and it's only made worse by the fact that now he's afraid to be near me, and later tells me that he can't trust me anymore. I think that there was another girl interested in him in the dream, and she told me that it wasn't safe for me to be around him, and that I should just go. Being really depressed, I end up overdosing myself on some pills and committing suicide.

[jinjin]

You may be hiding pent-up frustration and anger from someone, and this may be putting a strain between you and this person. The attack symbolises a need to express yourself, and the suicide symbolises your willingness to change and say good-by to a burdensome part of yourself that you have been carrying around.