i got my first tattoo recently its nothing hardcore just a symbol of my faith on my wrist it reminds me of the bible passage about the loaves and fishes, I have also just finished my GCSE examinations, which I am relieved about. I am hoping to have my first free summer one without a eating disorder and it will and should be great. So much planned. I am of to help under privileged children in brazil and then in the UK. So it should be good. I cannot wait. The mission is to help them learn about religion and faith and share my experiences and give them their essential necessities.
This fits in well with my mission in life; is to help people as much as I possibly can but in doing so to help myself and make me a better person and of course have fun along the way.
Then after I hope to go on to do A levels; I wish I could stay this young forever as I really do not want to leave high school .. I love it very much along with the wonderful teachers and fellow students without them I aint one clue about where I would be now.
God has taught me very clearly that Satan has its evil ways of getting you on the wrong path and even using acquaintances to lead you to the wrong path no matter what that might be, but you have to be strong and fight these and you will hopefully be granted paradise. I am a strong believer.
Keep your head up; and keep smiling. My life in a nutshell in the blog below.
ILY.
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My Life In A Nutshell
My Names Amy Dodds Im 16 From London, I Live With My Mum, Step Dad & Two Sisters Lucy And Tanya, Im The Middle Child. I Now Enjoy Life To The Full, You Only Live Once So Live Life To The Max. I Enjoy Everything & Most Types Of Music. I Dislike Knowing I Cant Help Someone I Love Whos Hurting, I Also Dislike Haters.
I Recovered From My Severe, Domineering Eating Disorder Anorexia Which Bought Me Close To Death At My Lowest Weight Of Just Under 5 Stone But I Couldn’t Have Done It Without The Positive Support From My Nurses From Rhodes Farm & Family & Friends. Now I Hope To Help As Many Other People.
I Am Academically Behinde A Year Due To My Illness I Should Be In Year 12 However Im In Year 11 Which I Love Because I Have Friends In Both Years Now =]
This is pretty much my life in a nutshell. I wrote this out in hopes that you can see you are by far not alone and recovery is possible! I thought it wasn’t but I fooled me..♥
In our childhood things happen to us we cannot control. I feel like we are most venerable when we are at a young age. We don’t yet have the ability to make mature decisions and keep ourselves out of situations that could be harmful. I was unfortunately a victim to this venerability and was hurt just like so many people are. I was physically and emotionally abused by my father it all started when I has just turned 12.
I didn’t think I needed to lose weight but I just didn’t want to eat. My childhood depression led to this loss of appetite. I felt very insecure about myself and had low self-esteem, always. I really felt unloved by my parents. My mother was ill at the time with cancer and I didn't ever want to be around my father because I was afraid of him and what he might do. I would cry myself to sleep at night wishing I could do something about it but I couldnt tell anyone.
At rock bottom, I was 5'3, 13 yrs old and weighed only 4stone12lbs. I was a very sick little girl. I would dance for 6 hours in a day and go home to say up literally all night exercising still. I didn’t sleep or eat and it was becoming painfully obvious to the people close to me, After I was confronted, I told my mom. She cried and told me she "couldn't believe I was doing this to her" then nothing else was ever said, at this point she didnt know hwta my father was doing to me neither did my 2 sisters one older and one younger then me.
I was the middle sister and they didn’t get abused in anyway of my dad I don’t know why it was me I have never did anything wrong to hurt him then one day he physically abused me so bad he left loads of marks bruises etc.. and that’s when I couldn’t try to cover it up no more and he was caught I was relieved totally he cant ruin my life no more but it will always be in my memory and no one can take the pain I went through away from me can I just say emotional abuse hurts and no child should go through it no matter what they have or haven’t did, I was emotionally abused in a way where my older and younger sister was always better then me I was always put down and felt rejected and physically abused by getting hit for doing nothing wrong etc so please stand up if you are getting abused in anyway, so I was fed up of life and I didn’t think there was any point of it and then I stopped eating etc and my mam recovered I was so happy but I couldn’t go back to eating as anorexia [Ana] had got me read the letter from Ana it feels just like that to have ANA any anorexic will tell you that. I have been hospitalised for my anorexia when I was 14 but before going into hospital I used to visit pro
Anal sites worse of then mine and it would tell you how to fool doctors etc and I did pull it of and it worked I was out after 6 months but Ana hasn’t left me yes its hard but I want perfection I weight 93lbs now but I don’t think I have still reached where I wasn’t to be, and yes there are days when I feel what’s the point in all this? And when will I be thin enough