Going Crazy

Jubbly · Hello. I am New! Talk to Me Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 8

I am 30, married with a young daughter. I suppose I married for security and to have a family. I have never had a boyfriend before my husband, and have never fancied men, only females. I love my husband but in a soulmate kind of way and our sex life is only existent when trying for a baby. I masturbate masturbate
I wonder how long our relationship will last, but for now I can dream of a relationship with a woman.

I am a large lady, size 26, and my body confidence scores negative, which probably explains why I am yet to experience anything physical with another woman. I came close to it once with someone on a forum but I chickened out.

I'm by no means a sex crazed lunatic, but I know what I like sexually. I'm very open to experimentation but want to start with someone who makes me feel comfortable with them. If I could find someone big like me, perhaps lacking in confidence too, I would be ecstatic. I would like to get to know someone by email/chat, exchange photos and fantasies and then if we feel comfortable, arrange to meet up. I am in the Midlands. I'd be happy to travel a fair distance, particularly as I have friends in the south so have an excuse to disappear for a weekend!

Please no piss-takers. I'm only interested in getting to know someone of like mind and can spot a fake a mile off.

prettygirl_luv · Posted: Tue Jul 18, 2006 7:53 pm Post subject:

Hi Jubbly, sorry to hear about that all lol. Mines more of a terrible relationship, hard time to get out. So your in England, so many from England, but I get that for being on a UK site lol

amieeday · Posted: Tue Jul 18, 2006 7:58 pm Post subject:

wow i so know what you mean - im a big girl too and i wasn't at one time. it just seems to really make me uncomfortable talking to people. its like they know...they judge. im still great in bed....

prettygirl_luv · Posted: Tue Jul 18, 2006 8:01 pm Post subject:

Yeah most big ppl have that problem, like I know what turns a guy on, and I use that, but I work so hard to make someone like me, I strive for a attention, but yet I'm terrified of someone judging me. And all the stuff from my past bites me in the hindend, and tortures me, like now, I have so much issues.

Jubbly · Hello. I am New! Talk to Me Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 8

But I feel I'm very unattractive without clothes and that's a bit ofa barrier when trying to pluck up the confidence to make a move.

prettygirl_luv · Posted: Tue Jul 18, 2006 8:06 pm Post subject:

I hate learned to get past that by knowing I'm beautiful and having ppl tell me that. I still feel self-consious, when I do that kind of stuff, but if it turns him on, that's wonderful. Now getting the courage to be with a girl is a bit different, b/c I dont' know if my moves and that stuff work the same. You know.

prettygirl_luv · Posted: Tue Jul 18, 2006 8:07 pm Post subject:

More and more lately, I have let me feelings do that walking and let me being attractive and sexual without caring how I look b/c I dont' care either way, b/c I know it will feel good.

amieeday · Posted: Tue Jul 18, 2006 8:10 pm Post subject:

i think that you just need to concentrate on the positive things that you bring into the bedroom, don't worry so much about what you think that you look like b/c if someone is "into" you it will not matter -
im a great one to talk - i should take my own advice

btw - prettygirl_luv -
i can't im you on yhaoo for some reason

prettygirl_luv · Posted: Tue Jul 18, 2006 8:11 pm Post subject:

Have you tried prettygirl_18472a.

I'm on right now

prettygirl_luv · Posted: Tue Jul 18, 2006 8:12 pm Post subject:

lol amiee, its so much easier, just to say it, then to actually do it. I know I have said many a thing and to much of a coward to do it.

Jubbly · Hello. I am New! Talk to Me Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 8

My problem is that I have little confidence in the bedroom either because its not often I enjoy sex, as I haven't had theopportunity to experience it with someone I'm attracted to (ie. a female) yet.

Jubbly · Hello. I am New! Talk to Me Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 8

prettygirl_luv · Posted: Tue Jul 18, 2006 8:17 pm Post subject:

I dont' get sex often either, have you ever tried cybering, that might help, that helped me alot lol And just talking on here, and caming, that's like seeing someone. That helped me so much. I only get shy when I have to talk about myself in a way I dont' like, or when I have to do something I dnot' want to do lol

prettygirl_luv · Posted: Tue Jul 18, 2006 8:19 pm Post subject:

[quote="Jubbly"][quote="prettygirl_luv"]Have you tried prettygirl_18472a.

I'm on right now[/quote]

Who's prettygirl_18472a?[/quote]

Sorry its for amiee, but if you want, and you have yahoo messenger, you can add me. And if you dont' have yahoo mess, and you have msn, you can add me there, both of my screennames are on my profile

Jubbly · Hello. I am New! Talk to Me Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 8

I have such a busy life and because this is something I am pursuing behind my hubbie's back, I don't get a massive opportunity to come on here.