ok ill try and make this quick.. but if its not, PLEASE read. i need help..
my parents want to move to another city but im in the middle of my junior year in high school! they want to move about 2 hours north of where i live now, and i was actually born in this other city, and i LOOOVE it there. ive always wanted to move back...WHEN I WAS OLDER. not now! i am 16!im RIGHT in the middle of high school and have been planted with the same friends and same life for 10 years now! they cant just move me now when we were (in the first place!) planning to all move as a family in 2 years! now my dad is saying its for his business. bullshit. its his company, hes his own boss! there is NOOOO garantee the business with do better there also, beacuse its more competitive etc etc. so i just dont think we should move yet, and go with the original plan to move in a few years!!
but i also have some problems. mentally and whatnot. i make friends fine and im very outgoing and charasmatic... but.. i have an eating disorder. my mom kind of knows about it....she knows i dont have a normal relationship with food and my body etc. im very self concious. its not just my eating problem that holds me back from an big change. i have what doctors would call "neurotic excoriation". which is just fancy for "skin picking" i pick the skin around my fingernails to a voilent extent. i do it all the time, when im mad, nervous, angry, sad, jealous, anxious, scared, or even bored. its pretyt much a form of self mutilation and i know that all of my mental difficulties realllly r just ways for me to hide from expressing my feelings and everyone around me, . i feel no one understands how deeply i feel and how sensitive i am. i dont think my parents know the extent of my suffering within. i want to tell my parents, let them know that this move can really do inner damage to me..but i, i also fear them knowing "my secret". they will try to find help and i dont want that. i just want to stay here with my friends that i love, a school im comfortable and happy with etc. but my mom is leaving tonight to go to this other city...shes putting a check down for a property. i dont know what to do anymore! throwing fits doesnt get me anywhere, sympathy only gets me my parents reassurance that it will be ok. im getting NO WHERE! BUT I CANT MOVE! i cant!! please help me, please. what do i do?
thank you so much.
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p.s. my parents arre also bribing me with any car i want if i agree to this move. i call it a bribe. they call it a "thank you". w/e.
